At 28, I had everything I thought I wanted in life. I had a job as a drama teacher at the top Performing Arts School in the state and a seriously beautiful wife, but I was deeply unhappy and I didn't know why. Long before I understood the concept, I sabotaged them both - my career and my marriage. I lost them in quick succession and the bottom fell out of my world. I lost everything I thought I could rely on.
Rewind 5 years earlier and I was talking to God. I thanked Him for everything & told Him "I'll take it from here. Big mistake. I'd grown up with religion. It scarred me and I turned my back on it, but I threw out the baby with the bath water. Years later, when I hit rock bottom, I discovered God was not at all the way I'd been taught - strict and looking for an excuse to give us a hiding. He was just as I'd always known Him to be - the most loving, fun, accepting, sacrificial and the most amazing father I could imagine. But you'll have to discover that for yourself. I confused God with religion. It turns out God has as much regard for religion as I do.
But I asked God to leave me to it, and He respected that.
The results speak for themselves, but that's not the end of the story. This is a redemption story.
Families are amazing things. When functioning properly, children grow up with guidance and support, knowing who they are, their place in the world & how to go about functioning successfully in it. However, as I am sure you're well aware, many families don't function quite as they're supposed to. As a result, we can grow up with a skewed view of the world, ourselves, and our place in it. We have God-given dreams, talents, and desires but we don't always have permission to go after them.
My father dreamed of joining the air force. He studied hard and earned a scholarship to become a pilot. All that was required was his parent's signatures, but his mother had just lost three brothers in the war and there was no way on this green earth that she was going to lose her beloved only son as well. She refused point blank and his father didn't stand for him. Dad lived his parent's dream instead of his going to university. He was the first in his family to do so and excelled in it, gaining a Ph.D. in Mathematics from perhaps of the most prestigious university in the world for this subject, Cambridge University.
When it came to my living my dream of becoming a comic actor, Dad did what came naturally to him and he put a stop to it. He insisted I go to teacher's college instead, and I also did what came naturally, I complied. I don't recommend it. It had become a family trait, father to son. So when I found myself miserable in a job I was supposed to want, and a marriage for which we were both unsuited, it took a lot to work out. On top of that, my wife was pregnant. I found a counselor gracious enough to walk me through it. No small job.
Slowly I've been put back together and am living life (for the most part) the way I'm made to. My former wife and I found a way to raise our wonderful son. Naturally, I'm very passionate about people living their dreams. Our son is living his. I am again pursuing mine. When he turned 21 I lived in Bali for a year. I just loved that.
I am extremely well-versed in the intricacies of moving from broken to prospering. I am a born healer. I love coaching and I'm good at it. For the first time in my life, I'm doing work I love and am good at. I pray your God-given dreams will be your story. It is your Destiny.